~ mAy: ThE LiFe-ChAnGinG mOnTh ~

April is coming to an end and I'm so excited for May to come. Why? Because it's a month full of drastic changes which will affect my so-called ordinary & boring life..

1. I'm going to report my duty (new job, yeay!) by 2nd of May. Finally I'll become a government servant. Ops! almost actually, it's just a statutory body. To be honest I'm so excited about it, not about the work but the $$$, HeHe.. I know I sound stupid but previously, working in a small company for almost 2 years had made me envies others. My previous salaries were not high (the title of semi-senior audit / account sounds too good to the ears but the pays really suck!) and all I can say is, factory operators who work OT, days & nights can get almost the same as me. Upon arrival of the offer letter, I was pretty dumbstruck just by looking at the numbers, it's almost triple than I got paid before! Sungguh jakun saya kali ni.. Alhamdulillah rezeki nak kawen agaknya and berkat doa all of my loved ones! I feel relieved that I'll be able to provide a better life for mama + abah and also lessen the burden on hubby dalam bab nafkah zahir dan duniawi, HeHe.. Psstt!! Don, I'll treat you KFC everyday, u like them so much don't you?!
2. In the 1st week of May I'm going to own a car for myself. Before this Abah was willing to send / fetch me everyday to / from work. In order to save money for the things I want, I buried down the thoughts of buying a car, yelah gaji tak seberapa kan.. When the parents offered, why not?! It's less hassle because I don't need to think about petrol and maintenance costs (sungguh jahat aku nih!). Starting in May, I need to work in Bkt Mertajam which is 40km from SP. Aiyoo, I don't drive often and the license has been too long hiding in my purse with complete ignorance. I really need to sharpen my driving skills and also learn to be independent ASAP (this is the bad side of being the only child, it's hard to be independent!). Petrol, tol & maintenance cost?!! Uwaaaaa, lucky me for not buying big and expensive car, it's just a Viva. We should support our national car, HeHe :P
3. The most important event of the month: I will marry the man I love on the 17th. There's no way I can explain how I'm feeling right now. We both are getting mushier by the days! Lovey dovey tak hengat! Even the last time he called mentioning that he just bought a family insurance for the two of us has made me touched and cried. I just can't believe that I'm going to be someone's wife in less than a month! Bahagia betul orang nak kawen nih, hopefully we'll last forever and this is going to be my own version of fairy tales for future-grandchildren! Contrary to the 'aahh I'm going to get married' happy thoughts, it's sad to think that our plan to decorate our house in Alor Setar is postponed to an unknown date. 1 year, 2 years or 3 years later?! A temporary solution is living separately and meet on weekends, me in SP with parents and hubby with his in AS. If we really miss each other, I guess we can meet during weekdays but it'll be tiring to go back and forth with long hour drive. I can't think of this it'll make me sad..
4. End of May will be our first vacation together, it's the honeymoon! Our original plan is to go outside Malaysia, Bali perhaps but seem the plan need to be postponed too. How should I apply for leave when I don't even know whether I'm entitled for 2-3 days off before & after the wedding. I'm the junior, remember?! I'd be grateful if I managed to get a day off before and after the receptions. Thus, honeymoon will only take place on weekend a week after both receptions, We'll leave on Friday after work and be back on Sunday evening. Kinda a short vacation but it's OK, we'll plan another trip in December, hopefully I can get a week off. But for now we both aim for Langkawi, less time to travel, beautiful view and we also had good memories the last time we went there with friends :)
   

In order to get a better life, better future and good career ahead for both of us & parents, there are things which need to be changed and sacrified. I think I'm OK with that, I'm willing to accept the difficulties and challenges living away from hubby. I also hope the process of learning to be independent & become tolerate, less stubborn will make me a better person in the eyes of my loved ones and also to others. May God helps me as always..