~ The Unexpected ~

Uish lama gila tak update blog sampai dah bertimbun2 debu, sekali update dah ada citer baru. Aku dah ter'beranak' on last 6th December. Punya la terkejut tak sangka pun nak bersalin aritu tapi kuasa tuhan kan, Ammar pun nak jumpa mama & babah dia awal. Tengahari ahad tuh kebetulan ada appointment kat klinik kesihatan untuk scan perut, so bila dah siap scan doktor cakap baby ok and kemungkinan bleh bersalin ujung bulan. Doktor tanya lagi ada apa2 masalah ka, aku cakap la malam sebelum rasa perut dok mengeras selalu sangat. Doktor terus prepare referral letter to GH, kononnya suh aku pi cek detail kat sana in case ada apa2 problem. Aku ngan hubby singgah Hussain nasi kandar dulu pekena nasi then baru gi hospital.

Sampai sana dorang suh refer to wad bersalin, masa tu dok pikir apahal la kena pi situ bukan nak bersalin pun. Sampai sana misi siap suruh bukak barang kemas bagai memang macam nak bersalin padahal bila tanya just nak buat ctg test ja (to check baby's heartbeats & contractions). Dengan selambanya aku seludup masuk henpon and bermesej ngn hubby time menunggu test tu setel. Baring je pun dengan benda alah ctg tu ikat kat perut sambil dengar heartbeat baby yg kuat berbunyi. Tetiba rasa macam dengar heartbeats slowdown and doktor pun dengan pantas cakap nak check 'bawah'. Adoyaiii saket gila kena seluk ngan doktor laki tu, dah le dia badan besar kompem la tangan besar! Doktor tu bagitau dah bukak 2cm and trus dia discuss ngan doktor lain and they decided to cut me open immediately. What?!!!!

Another doctor explained to me that the baby was in distress and I was actually having contractions with no pain. Since the baby was in head-up position so I had to undergo a C-sect. Masa tu aku dah panik gila, hubby was nowhere to be seen and bila call rupanya dia pi minum Milo, huhu.. Nasib baik sempat jumpa salam, peluk cium sebelum disorong masuk OT. Takmo la cita bab dalam OT tuh, ngeri dan ngilu tapi yang pasti lepas dengar suara Ammar menangis rasa sayu sangat tapi sedih sebab tak boleh tengok dia, dorang dah bawak masuk ventilator and straight to NICU. Kejap je rupanya beranak through C-sect nih tapi lepas bius separuh tu dah abeh seksanya tuhan ja yang tau! Dah la takda sapa yang teman kat wad malam tu because the policy should be a woman below 50. My mom is over 50 and I have no sibling, menangis la aku malam tu sorang2 atas katil tahan sakit.. Ni la downside beranak kat hospital kerajaan, banyak karenah birokrasi.

Esoknya dapat jumpa my parents and hubby again during visiting time, trus kuatkan semangat bangun dari katil (saket!!!) and pergi NICU tengok Ammar. It was love at the 1st sight and seeing him so small sleeping and breathing is the most wonderful moment that I ever have in my life. I would never want to trade those moments with anything else! Another emotional part was to see him so vulnerable and fragile with wires and all.. Isk, takmo cerita la, sampai sekarang kalo ingat pun rasa nak nangis :(

Apa2 pun aku bersyukur sebab even bersalin @34 weeks++ tapi semuanya selamat. Walaupun Ammar is a preemie baby tapi berat dia cukup which is 2.65kg at birth and only stayed in ventilator for a short period and he started breathing on his own on the 3rd day of life. Alhamdulillah..

p/s: more details on next updates!