~ The Unexpected ~

Uish lama gila tak update blog sampai dah bertimbun2 debu, sekali update dah ada citer baru. Aku dah ter'beranak' on last 6th December. Punya la terkejut tak sangka pun nak bersalin aritu tapi kuasa tuhan kan, Ammar pun nak jumpa mama & babah dia awal. Tengahari ahad tuh kebetulan ada appointment kat klinik kesihatan untuk scan perut, so bila dah siap scan doktor cakap baby ok and kemungkinan bleh bersalin ujung bulan. Doktor tanya lagi ada apa2 masalah ka, aku cakap la malam sebelum rasa perut dok mengeras selalu sangat. Doktor terus prepare referral letter to GH, kononnya suh aku pi cek detail kat sana in case ada apa2 problem. Aku ngan hubby singgah Hussain nasi kandar dulu pekena nasi then baru gi hospital.

Sampai sana dorang suh refer to wad bersalin, masa tu dok pikir apahal la kena pi situ bukan nak bersalin pun. Sampai sana misi siap suruh bukak barang kemas bagai memang macam nak bersalin padahal bila tanya just nak buat ctg test ja (to check baby's heartbeats & contractions). Dengan selambanya aku seludup masuk henpon and bermesej ngn hubby time menunggu test tu setel. Baring je pun dengan benda alah ctg tu ikat kat perut sambil dengar heartbeat baby yg kuat berbunyi. Tetiba rasa macam dengar heartbeats slowdown and doktor pun dengan pantas cakap nak check 'bawah'. Adoyaiii saket gila kena seluk ngan doktor laki tu, dah le dia badan besar kompem la tangan besar! Doktor tu bagitau dah bukak 2cm and trus dia discuss ngan doktor lain and they decided to cut me open immediately. What?!!!!

Another doctor explained to me that the baby was in distress and I was actually having contractions with no pain. Since the baby was in head-up position so I had to undergo a C-sect. Masa tu aku dah panik gila, hubby was nowhere to be seen and bila call rupanya dia pi minum Milo, huhu.. Nasib baik sempat jumpa salam, peluk cium sebelum disorong masuk OT. Takmo la cita bab dalam OT tuh, ngeri dan ngilu tapi yang pasti lepas dengar suara Ammar menangis rasa sayu sangat tapi sedih sebab tak boleh tengok dia, dorang dah bawak masuk ventilator and straight to NICU. Kejap je rupanya beranak through C-sect nih tapi lepas bius separuh tu dah abeh seksanya tuhan ja yang tau! Dah la takda sapa yang teman kat wad malam tu because the policy should be a woman below 50. My mom is over 50 and I have no sibling, menangis la aku malam tu sorang2 atas katil tahan sakit.. Ni la downside beranak kat hospital kerajaan, banyak karenah birokrasi.

Esoknya dapat jumpa my parents and hubby again during visiting time, trus kuatkan semangat bangun dari katil (saket!!!) and pergi NICU tengok Ammar. It was love at the 1st sight and seeing him so small sleeping and breathing is the most wonderful moment that I ever have in my life. I would never want to trade those moments with anything else! Another emotional part was to see him so vulnerable and fragile with wires and all.. Isk, takmo cerita la, sampai sekarang kalo ingat pun rasa nak nangis :(

Apa2 pun aku bersyukur sebab even bersalin @34 weeks++ tapi semuanya selamat. Walaupun Ammar is a preemie baby tapi berat dia cukup which is 2.65kg at birth and only stayed in ventilator for a short period and he started breathing on his own on the 3rd day of life. Alhamdulillah..

p/s: more details on next updates!

~ Finally.. ~

I'm so happy! Finally hubby dah bleh tukar sekolah and pindah ke SP. Walaupun sekolah tu nun jauh kat Yan tapi kami dah bleh stay serumah tetiap hari bukan macam dulu weekend ja jumpa. Tapi saspen gak nak dok serumah ni (even dok ngan my parents), rasa macam pengantin baru plak padahal sebenarnya dah setahun setengah kawen. Bermula la rutin nak iron baju dia, nak prepare makan minum dia yang sebelum ni jarang sangat aku buat. Yela, sebelum ni masing2 dok ngan parents sendiri kan.. Tapi sebenarnya bab masak tu kompem mama buat, yang tu memang aku fail!

Living cost sama ja tak berubah, dulu hubby berulang dari AS - Bukit Kayu Hitam dalam 45 minit, sekarang berulang dari SP - Yan pun sama gak. Minyak and tol pun dah kira sama la. Aku plak berulang dari SP - BM, 45 minit gak. Jadinya nanti sorang menghala ke selatan sorang lagi ke utara, duit buang atas jalan la jawabnya huhu.. apa nak buat nama pun carik rezeki, janji dok skali and paling penting bleh tengok baby membesar depan mata tak lama lagi! InsyaAllah..

~ Overrated ~

I went to watch Papadom with high expectation but came out from the hall 2 hours later with disappointment. I enjoyed the message of the movie but not the whole package of it. I think it was overrated. The comedy scenes were just so-so. After all, it was just a typical malay movie only slightly better than the others.

~ The Excitement ~

It has been a while and everything does change in the past several weeks. Last raya was great especially the food. Since I really got my appetite back, I enjoyed attending open houses and finally managed to gain some more kilos! Currently weighs at 56 kilos and in my 26th week, I'm pretty satisfied the numbers are really on track according to the chart given by the doctor.

Lately, I love to eat at nasi kandar restaurant, not because of the briyani but I crave for my unusual menu of 'nasi putih + kari telur ikan + kerang + kuah campur + susu lembu panas'. I must have them at least 1-2 times a week because they are super duper yummy. Luckily my stomach can really accept milk again, Alhamdulillah.

By the way, I'm so excited because I've already started buying baby stuff! I've been out to various malls and baby stores since the last two weeks and had spent a lot on buying those cute apparels. I never thought shopping for baby was so much fun, I'd love to do that always! The last time I checked, almost all items on my baby list have been stroked out! The rest is going to be completed by the end of this month and that means more shopping, hehe..

We went for a checkup yesterday and everything is good except the baby is still in 'head-up' position but the doctor said he still got plenty of time to turn before the birth. Next check up will be on 19th November which will be on my 32nd week. Meanwhile, I'm going to 'persuade' and slow talk to baby so he can turn his head down as soon as possible since the womb will be smaller for him later.

~ Luncai dan Labunya.. ~

Sedapnya ngata orang kan?! What should I do?! The best way is to shut my ears, close my eyes, recite Alhamdulillah and let it go.. Aku jugak yang dapat pahala. Kenal aku pun tidak sesedap ja mulut nak komen apa bagai. Mungkin hidup korang ni kurang best kot?! Ke masih tak puas hati kes lama?!

By the way, I don't have time to dwell into that anymore because I'm too busy with my current life! Terjun la wahai si luncai dengan mat labu sorang tuh ke dalam sungai yer..