~ The Checkup ~

I just came back from my monthly checkup at a government clinic with hubby and it was lame as usual. The only interesting part is to hear the baby's heartbeats. The doctor did an ultrasound but didn't bother to turn the screen towards me even when I asked for it. What is the point of doing it if the parents couldn't feel the excitement of seeing their baby growing up in the womb?! Well, it's a free service after all so no complaint.

I asked the doctor about the gender and she said the genital parts look like a boy. Hmmm.. I'll confirm it with my gynae in next couple of weeks. Hubby and I planned to have our baby at a private facility so I'm just doing the monthly checkups with general hospital in order to maintain my 'buku merah' (just in case anything will not happen as planned).

The only thing that worries me is my weight. After I dropped 3 kgs in the first 4 months into pregnancy, I only manged to gain back 2.5 and now I weigh at only 52.5 which is still quite far behind the expected digits at 54.5 kgs. I need to try hard and eat more for the baby!! But it's already Ramadhan and I'm afraid I'll drop some more. How?!

~ Recovered ~

I almost forgot how much I love to eat. Now that I'm feeling so much better, I crave for everything that comes to mind! For the past 2-3 weeks, I only threw up 3-4 times a week but who cares?! Compared to what I had been through the previous months, it's considered nothing. I'm on the mission to 'ganti puasa', and still has the remaining 3 days to go. Chayok!

Another thing is my nose is not as sensitive as before and it's such a relief. I start to wear perfume, skincare and make-ups again and I have return to the old bubbly EcLaSs. Families, friends and colleagues are glad to 'have' me back. Oh! I'm driving again, went to Alor Star last week and met in-laws after a long time.

P/S: I was half-way through the entry when I decided to stop and drove to Leomag just to get a Blueberry Cheese Waffle (I drool just by looking at the picture above). I ate the whole waffle and drove back home and completed the rest of this entry! Life couldn't be much happier. Alhamdulillah..

~ The 1st Trimester Experiences ~

I really want to share some of the experiences I had during the 1^st 4 months of pregnancy. Besides, they will be my references for my 2nd pregnancy in the next 3-4 years, insyaAllah. Here they are:-

1. I went for a trip in Kuching during week 6^th with hubby on our 1^st anniversary. We couldn’t cancel since everything had been booked a month earlier. It turned out to be the worst trip ever due to nausea & vomiting I had to endure. I didn’t enjoy it and I cried almost all the time because I was so uncomfortable. I hate the trip I don’t even bother to see all the pictures taken there up until now (that’s why not a single picture uploaded on my FB / Friendster). I also forbid myself not to wear the same clothes and shoes I wore in Kuching because the thought of them will make me puke!
2. I cannot smell perfumes and deodorant. I made hubby promised not to wear them whenever he is with me. I was also not wearing any of it and stay away from those who wear them.
3. I cannot stand the smell of any skincare and make-ups. I avoided them on my skin, I practically had bare face all the time and my colleagues said I looked so sick and some even said I didn’t take my morning shower! (Don’t worry, I never fail to have one every morning)
4. I had problems with my own bathroom. Usually a bathroom will always has a trail of scents whether it is shampoo, soap, shower foam, toothpaste, scrubs etc but they really annoyed me. I always ended up vomiting once I entered the bathroom. I tried various air freshener and replaced the toiletries with some new fragrances but they never solve the problems. At last, I decided to minimize my time in that much dreaded room. Sometimes I brushed my teeth and washed my face at kitchen sink.
5. This one is funny! At some times, I couldn't smell my own poop. Imagine throwing out while you're pooping, weird right?!!
   
6. I gave up rice but forced myself to have it 1-2 times a week for energy booster. I also gave up durian and milk, the two things I had no problem to consume before I got pregnant. Furthermore, I couldn't drink any plain water except anything with color such as sunquick, milo and sirap.
   
7. I cannot drive because it will make me dizzy. Lucky enough I have a car pool partner. Due to this, I hadn't been to Alor Star for a long time. It was hubby who came to SP every weekend.

Every pregnancy is different and I like reading others' stories in the pregnancy forum just to compare with my own ones. Pregnancy does make us, the expectant mothers different and weird, right? But it's worth once you get to see and hold the baby. And I can't wait for the moment.. Hope both the baby and I will be OK throughout the pregnancy :)

~ A Tale Of A Pregnant Lady ~

It was a bumpy and never-ending roller coaster ride. Not the one that rushes your adrenaline high enough to give you excitement and energy but the type which leave you sick of puking out all over the places. That’s what I thought for the past 4 months..

I always imagined being pregnant is a wonderful experiences, it’s the labor that I fear most. Of course I have the general ideas of a pregnancy; morning sickness, bladder problems and hormonal imbalances etc but I was so sure I could handle them because it is normal by nature, right? Unfortunately when I experience it in hand, the 1^st 4 months into it was the hardest time. It hit me by storm and totally changed my life 100%!

The nausea and vomiting had made me so weak and I stopped taking care of myself, sometimes I forgot to comb my hair. I never cared about my look or whatsoever, instead, all I wanted to do is lie down and sleep so I couldn't feel them. I threw up 2-3 times a day (4-5 times on the worst day) and had trouble eating. Thanks to hubby who kept buying KFC nuggets, yong tau fu, ice cream and iced milo (they seemed the only food I could tolerate). As the result, I managed to prevent further weight loss which I stopped at 3kg on week 15^th.

I was so glad the nausea and vomiting started to abate during week 14^th. Even though the queasiness stays for 2-3 days of each week later on, at least I got my life back. Everything starts to look normal again and I try to savor the good feeling as much as I can! I’m hoping for a happy experiences in this 2^nd trimester and also the next one, insyaAllah..

p/s: now at week 16th ++